Happy Saturday

Feels like one of those days when you are happy to wake up and start your day....

Jhatka

There are times when you are exposed to a reality that was unknown to you in the midst of daily duties. You realize that there is a lot more to learn and a lot more to do. The expectations are higher and you might me not be even at par. But the struggle, the struggle is fun only when you get paid for it. I wish one day I'll be the one who has a dream fulfilled too.

Down Low Underground Below ...........

My hand aches, my back aches, my head aches and so do my eyes with sleep filled in them.
I am doomed tomorrow
Panelists from donno what countries gonna ask me questions that I'll have no idea about along with their incomprehensible foreign accents. My presentation is still incomplete forget counting time duration( unlike other participants who have rehearsed for more hours than my total sleeping hours tonight).
Plan A : Ignore this exhaustion and stay up all night
Plan B : Quit and stay locked in my hostel room tomorrow
Besides all these my mind has nothing more going in it for the past 3 n half hours but to feel dumb,stupid,clingy,annoying,childish,demanding,stubborn,obsessed,crazy,stressed and ya definitely in tears :P

If only..

If only you understood what I meant,
If only you knew what I thought,
If only you saw what was there in my eyes,
If only you felt what I felt,
If only I was that simple...

yawn.............

3rd day of exam.3 more to go.losing out on valuable sleep :'(.people around are falling ill.Life is pleasant.

:)

Life is back to eternal bliss...

Regret

There are times when you regret your each and every past event and you keep wondering "if only..." and "I wish..".It was one of those bad days for me today. I feel helpless and cursing myself doesn't help either. I cried twice in a day for the same reason even when a person of my age isn't expected to shed tears for such trifle matters (this isn't the first time). But the point is whatsoever I fail to prove myself time and again that I am not devoid of emotions and value true relations more than a materialistic pleasure like an -Ipod! I'll rather call myself "emotion expressing handicapped".
I am at loss of words to give a satisfying apology nor have I spent enough time brooding to help me get over it.I have been difficult, whiney and acted childish all day. How can someone tolerate all of it and still be in love with such a jerk???
Eating almonds isn't helping much to trace back all those events. My brain is gonna burst anytime and so am I. My memory was never reliable and I wish I observed things more. I am never ever going t0 forgive myself for this

"Weeping Smileys"

If this is what I am expected to do for the next week then it'll be one ruthless week for me. Its like asking me to run when my leg has been amputated.